OS: Stupid Boy

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Well, she was precious like a flower
She grew wild, wild but innocent

Sanka Devi. Titaliya. Khushi. They all fit. They were all so irrevocably her and yet they weren’t enough. Words would never be enough to describe just how precious and innocent Khushi Kumari Gupta was.

'Haan. Pagal toh hain.'

A perfect prayer in a desperate hour
She was everything beautiful and different

His eyes opened and he saw hers do the same. Clad in green she stumbled and tripped closer and closer. And then she fell, right into his arms.

'Ajeeb hai yeh.'

Stupid boy, you can't fence that in
Stupid boy, it's like holding back the wind

All his efforts to minimise her effect on his life went in vain. They kept coming back to each other. Time and time again.

'Aaj se. In fact issi pal se meri zindagi se nikal jao. Na tumhari shakal dekhni hai na tumse koi baat karni hai. Aur yeh definitely mere haath mein hai Khushi Kumari Gupta.'

She let her heart and soul right in your hands
And you stole her every dream and you crushed her plans

Arnav Singh Raizada is his own maker. He doesn’t rely on hopes and dreams. He decides his own fate.

'Aur sirf apni nahin. Auron ki kismat bhi main hi likhta hoon.'

She never even knew she had a choice and that's what happens
When the only voice she hears is telling her she can't
Stupid boy, stupid boy
Oh

                Lies. So many lies. Was he lying to her or lying to himself?

'Mujhe iss sab se koi farq nahin padtha. It doesn't mean a thing... Tumhe toh laga hoga ki tumhari zindagi ban gayi. Mere liye uss baat ki ya tumhari, koi ehmiyat nahi.'

So what made you think you could take a life
And just push it push it around
I guess to build yourself up so high
You had to take her and break her down

He pushed and she pushed right back. Others capitulated so easily but not Khushi Kumari Gupta. So he pushed some more.

'Haan main bohot khush hoon. Tumhe itni takleef mein dekhke bohot khush hoon main. In fact maine yeh sab kiya isliye. Taaki tumhe itni takleef mein dekh sakoon. Suna tumne? Jaana chahti ho kyun? Jaana chahti ho kyun tumhe suffer karne dekhna chahta hoon? Kyunki main tumse nafrat karta hoon. Because I hate you!'

She let her heart and soul right in your hands
And you stole her every dream and you crushed her plans

Love and dreams have no place in Arnav Singh Raizada’s life. He only believes in that which he can see, which he can touch, which he can definitely proclaim to exist.

'Humne socha jab pyaar hoga har jaga sirf wohi nazar aayenge. Jab pyaar hoga toh phool barasne lagenge, Aaanchal mein sitaare chamakne lagenge.'

She never even knew she had a choice and that's what happens
When the only voice she hears is telling her she can't
You stupid boy

He was never the hero, always the villain.

'Asli duniya mein sapnon ke Rajkumar kaha hote? ...Sapnon ki duniya mein rehna hi accha hai. Asli duniya mein sirf dil toothe hain.'

Oh, you always had to be right but now you've lost
The only thing that ever made you feel alive
Yeah, yeah

Arnav Singh Raizada is never wrong. Is he?

'You don’t even exist for me. Do you understand? Tum ho ya na ho. Kuch karo ya na karo mujhe uss se koi farq nahi padta. Samjhi tum?'

Well, she let her heart and soul right in your hands
And you stole her every dream and you crushed her plans
Yes, you did

Every girl dreams of her wedding. Arnav dreamt of his sister’s. His sister’s dream shouldn’t shatter. Even if it meant somebody else’s would.

'Yeh sab cheezein tumhare liya bohot maine rakhti hai na? Yeh mangalsutra? Yeh sindoor? Toh yeh raha mangalsutra aur yeh raha sindoor. Ab tum meri patni ho par sirf duniya ki nazron mein aur sirf che mahine ke liye. Uske baad mein tumhe azaad kardoonga. Par tab tak tum mere ghar mein, mere saath, meri patni bankar rahogi. Par yaad rakhna, yeh sindoor, yeh mangalsutra sirf ek samjhota hai. Na mein tumhe kabhi apni biwi manoonga, aur na kabhi apni biwi ka darja doonga.'

She never even knew she had a choice and that's what happens
When the only voice she hears is telling her she can't

He tore everything apart in mere moments. He let two insignificant minutes decide the fate of three couples, and two families. Decide the fate of the most singularly significant person he would ever meet.

'Tum mujhse shaadi karogi. Aaj. Che mahino ke liye.'

You stupid boy, oh, I'm the same old
Same old stupid boy

'Maa!' 

I could almost be fifteen again.

'Khushi!'

Except it hurts so much more this time around.

 

It took awhile for her to figure out she could run
But when she did, she was long gone
Long gone, long gone
Ah, she's gone

How many times did I tell her that Arnav Singh Raizada controlled his own fate? I didn’t know then that she was my fate.

'Ek din aisa ayega jab aapko pata chalega ki aapne apne liye jho kuch bhi likha who Devi Maiyya ne aapka haath pakarkar aapse likhwaya hai. Aap jho kuch bhi karte hai unki marzi se karte hai aur aage bhi unki hi marzi hogi. Lekin jis din aapko yeh patha chalega na? Uss din hum waha nahi honge.'

Nobody's ever gonna love me like she loved me
And she loved me, she loved me
God please, just let her know
I'm sorry, I'm sorry
I'm sorry, I'm sorry
Baby, yeah, I'm down on my knees
She's never coming back to me

I’m sorry Khushi, I’m really sorry.

'Main jaanta hoon jaane anjane main maine tumhe bohot chot pounchayi hai. Par woh isliye kyunki... kyunki mujhe kabhi patha hi nahin chalta. Aur phir jab realise karta hoon, I really regret it. I... I really do. Bohot bura lagta hai mujhe. Par main kuch bhi kabhi jaanke nahin karta Khushi. Main bas... main bas aisa hi hoon.'